The latter of these became true for me about two months ago. I am torn between just spilling my heart out onto the digital page and sharing everything that happened, or just giving a general summation of the resulting outcome of events. For now I will skimp on the details to protect the parties involved and because I believe in living in the moment and not dwelling upon the past. My relationship of almost 5 years has just recently come to a somewhat unexpected end. The relationship ended civilly and without animosity. She and I remain friends, but what we had together is gone and we don't see any going back to what it once was. I suppose for my first serious relationship 5 years is pretty good, but that is small consolation. The spark of new love and potential for something new and wonderful is better consolation and I feel myself lucky to have found such for myself.
This new track on my life's journey has already had its share of bumps and potholes but there has been bright sunny patches as well and I foresee more joyful times ahead. I have never been a big fan of changes, however I seem to be coping well with these latest and adjusting to my new reality. I feel I am being drawn back to my spirituality as well, and look forward to reacquainting myself with some old friends and making some new ones.
I do not think that this blog signals a true return to my blogging, more that it is my attempt at updating the few readers I have and giving some explanation why my online presence has been so diminished these past 2 months. I am in the process of looking for a new place to live with my new love while staying with my parents in the interim. They have been great help and support, as always, in this latest of my life's trials. I only hope to repay them someday, and sooner by finding a place for myself and returning their home fully to them. I will write again when I am able to or when I am forced by inspiration to do so. Until then:
Long Days and Pleasant Nights to Ye,
Josh
